The last month of my life

[demonhunter]

Dont waste your life ... Join Isis as undercover .

Bomb lesson , strap on the vest and detonate ...

You will be a national hero instead .

[moscode]

Originally Posted by demonhunter

Dont waste your life ... Join Isis as undercover .

Bomb lesson , strap on the vest and detonate ...

You will be a national hero instead .

if can, i will gladly do it bro.

[moscode]

I am here to vent my worry again.

I think it is just me being paranoid.

but i realised those who does not have depression and everything tend to
comfort me in a way whereby hey it is ok but do they really understand
how i feel and everything? I doubt they can.

Anyway i have been thinking that i am a burden to my friends and everyone
close to me. I cannot tell anyone about my depression and stuff but only one
friend who is experiencing the same thing as me. The only difference between
him and me is that he has no bad records and is from a better off family.

But i am just afraid that i will burden him when he himself is already on medication and
i am still ranting to him. He is a nice guy who is fine with everything so i felt like a bad person.

Right now i have already blocked all contacts with friends and pretty much
distance myself from the outside world.

[hunter12]

Originally Posted by moscode

I am here to vent my worry again.

I think it is just me being paranoid.

but i realised those who does not have depression and everything tend to
comfort me in a way whereby hey it is ok but do they really understand
how i feel and everything? I doubt they can.

Anyway i have been thinking that i am a burden to my friends and everyone
close to me. I cannot tell anyone about my depression and stuff but only one
friend who is experiencing the same thing as me. The only difference between
him and me is that he has no bad records and is from a better off family.

But i am just afraid that i will burden him when he himself is already on medication and
i am still ranting to him. He is a nice guy who is fine with everything so i felt like a bad person.

Right now i have already blocked all contacts with friends and pretty much
distance myself from the outside world.

no problems bro TS, here is the place where u can vent anything u wan, say anything u wan, discuss anything u wan... those that u can't do it in FB or with friends..

i believed those bros / sis are in gd faith, really hope everything turn out alright for u..

for once, u can check my post history.... not to convince u anything.. but just to let u know.. u r not alone... not alone in a mess up situation.. but for me.. i keep telling myself.. i will b a fighter... a fighter not to give up no matter what.. if it is my life to suffer i will suffer cause i know that to end my own life is easy but it will be very hard for those that love n care for me.. i live for them but not for me.. i hold on for them but not for me..

nobody say life is easy bro TS.

[moscode]

Originally Posted by hunter12

no problems bro TS, here is the place where u can vent anything u wan, say anything u wan, discuss anything u wan... those that u can't do it in FB or with friends..

i believed those bros / sis are in gd faith, really hope everything turn out alright for u..

for once, u can check my post history.... not to convince u anything.. but just to let u know.. u r not alone... not alone in a mess up situation.. but for me.. i keep telling myself.. i will b a fighter... a fighter not to give up no matter what.. if it is my life to suffer i will suffer cause i know that to end my own life is easy but it will be very hard for those that love n care for me.. i live for them but not for me.. i hold on for them but not for me..

nobody say life is easy bro TS.

thank you for your kindness

[PPGirl]

Originally Posted by moscode

I am here to vent my worry again.

I think it is just me being paranoid.

but i realised those who does not have depression and everything tend to
comfort me in a way whereby hey it is ok but do they really understand
how i feel and everything? I doubt they can.

Anyway i have been thinking that i am a burden to my friends and everyone
close to me. I cannot tell anyone about my depression and stuff but only one
friend who is experiencing the same thing as me. The only difference between
him and me is that he has no bad records and is from a better off family.

But i am just afraid that i will burden him when he himself is already on medication and
i am still ranting to him. He is a nice guy who is fine with everything so i felt like a bad person.

Right now i have already blocked all contacts with friends and pretty much
distance myself from the outside world.

i have depression b4. Under medication for few months.
Yes i shut myself from outside world too. Shut my hp so that no 1 can contact me.

U need to go out with ur frds more. Let them know what u r facing. If u keep thinking negatively there is no one whom can really help u on this. Only u urself can walk out.

Work on ur goals or any other things u wish to do but havent do? Think positively.

[Keima]

Not gonna preach to you bro. Not gonna plead with you nor am I gonna argue with your choice.

But just do me a big favour can? Spend some time reading this... I stumbled upon it on my FB feed one day and it really affected me. These are stories you need to read, that you need to understand. These are stories of people who made the same choice you want to make.

http://livethroughthis.org/

[moscode]

Originally Posted by Keima

Not gonna preach to you bro. Not gonna plead with you nor am I gonna argue with your choice.

But just do me a big favour can? Spend some time reading this... I stumbled upon it on my FB feed one day and it really affected me. These are stories you need to read, that you need to understand. These are stories of people who made the same choice you want to make.

http://livethroughthis.org/

read afew of them but i guess everyone is different.

[sammyboyfor]

Originally Posted by moscode

read afew of them but i guess everyone is different.

We have all had periods when we feel down. I have found that the best therapy is a long bike ride. It cheers me up immensely.

Exercise is now part of my life. It keeps me happy and motivated.

[Keima]

Originally Posted by sammyboyfor

We have all had periods when we feel down. I have found that the best therapy is a long bike ride. It cheers me up immensely.

Exercise is now part of my life. It keeps me happy and motivated.

Oh yes, I lost weight, got fit, made new friends and explored new locations thanks to cycling. Work has been crushing and the weather's not helping, but an early dawn ride on empty roads with great buddies is in my near future... Plus some of the gals look great in lycra 😁

[arsenal_84]

what these athletics can do sometimes makes fully able bodies like us guilty of not giving our best shot in life.

[moscode]

Originally Posted by arsenal_84

what these athletics can do sometimes makes fully able bodies like us guilty of not giving our best shot in life.

i am ashamed

[arsenal_84]

Originally Posted by moscode

i am ashamed

likewise, that's why i push myself a lot harder in my exercise regime nowadays.
these are the ppl who have a lot more willpower than us and hopefully someday i will develop mental strength like theirs.

[moscode]

today i had a relapse. Slept for 14 hours straight.

It was good till i awake.

[lickman]

Originally Posted by moscode

today i had a relapse. Slept for 14 hours straight.

It was good till i awake.

good sleep is a way to revitalise our body system.then later watch EPL.
After that you will realise die is very scary,so dun die.

HUat ah!!!