Everything as mentioned on my end, in my own point of view, is real. And everything about "M", is based either on what he tells me or what i conclude from my own observation. Pretty sure he's an active member here although we didnt know each other through SBF.
Happily married (or so he claimed), in his late 30s, work as a lecturer, M is the kind of sunshine-filled man that clearly knows how to enjoy life. He'd spend his free time reading, cycling, or just going under the sun. In fact, he's quite popular with his students, and he has the perfect outgoing, social and loving husband facade set up.
His wife is just as simple as he is. Enjoys artsy stuff, proud of her perfect husband. In fact, they seems like just the perfect pair together. At least on the surface. Just a little from his wife, I'd actually realised I've been following her for quite awhile on some social media, because of a shared hobby. The day I chanced about his photo, I swear, I nearly fell into a drain from shock. She's definitely the kind of girl I'd never want to hurt. But, what happens when I get hurt? I'm still struggling now. Oh well. I can be quite sick. *giggle*
Now the male and female lead is done. Just a little about me. I'm still dealing with a very bad end to a very bad relationship. In the midst of recovering, I started finding out more about myself, especially the fact that a normal relationship no longer satisfies me. I no longer wanted to be emotionally invested. I was in fact attracted to the dark side of the mind. I started developing dark thoughts. Much as I know I'm sick, pretty sick, I was also proud that I'm actually proud enough to face up to this side of me.
And because of this crazy thought.
I became M's "sex slave in training". I flunked the exam, of course. That's why I'm writing here openly. However... let's see. Because, I'm starting to wonder about something.
Do I really wanted to be M's sex slave? Or I was just trying to please him because it's in my nature to please? Was i truly attracted to M's dark mind, or am i attracted to what he potrayed himself to be?
I think I will reveal who M is eventually.
Because hatred is something that grows very fast. (Especially a woman's rage. I just received a text this morning from a woman whom was betrayed by a man 4 years ago, and she's still stalking him till date, updating me that she found out he had a son with someone else.).
各位
说真的
宁可得罪小人
不可得罪女人
玩不起,就不要玩
要玩,就知道必须付出同等的代价
我虽然不想伤害你身边的那个人
但我也不打算让自己白白受伤,崩溃。
Hmm so you're pissed at your master when it was you who failed him and he subsequently decided you're no longer worth training ?